Bullying

Sucks. This video brought on these feelings:

I was bullied quite a lot in grade school. I don't like to be pitied about it; it happened a long time ago and I'm over it. It happens, I guess. But it sure does leave its scars. I think it's one of the reasons I often find myself thinking I'm inadequate or that people don't want to be around me. I still have the habit of standing outside of ringed groups of people for thinking they would prefer to ignore me breathing down their necks than actually letting me join in.

 High school helped me get over a lot of my shyness in such matters, but it still lingers at times. First year of college kinda brought it out again, since there were so many new potential friends. The one friend I thought I did have wasn't anything near supportive either, so that made me feel like no one would be supportive of me at school.

We all need encouragement at times. We all need to be told we've done something right, or that we're pretty or handsome, or that we're loved. Bullying is the exact opposite of any good feeling one can experience. It's not just someone telling someone else something bad, its the receiver of the bullying dwelling on it and thinking about what was said or done for days (or more) afterward. It lingers. It festers. There's a reason it can drive kids to suicide; they become incapable of thinking anything can get any better.

It's just so frustrating to me that bullying is more often than not taken too lightly. Schools may punish bullying acts that they discover very severely, but the administration often has no idea how much more the bullying can continue after the punishment has been dealt. It may not be as overt as it was, but when administration ignores the quick jibes and underhanded blows that astonishingly young children have mastered, a child can be hurt just as much as if not more than the when s/he was forced to endure the overt acts. If anything, jibes that no one notices are worse, because the bully completely gets away with them. And then, the administration who punished the bully years in the past awards that bully for his or her appearance of pristine behavior toward adults, when he or she is still bullying his/her peers.

Ugh, sorry for venting. Lolz I haven't done that for a while on here. I just can stand when I hear about stuff like that; it drives me nuts!

Ok, here's something a little more cheerful/ awesome ;)

Until next time...